October 27, 2004

• I received saddening news yesterday. It seems Ashley's lung cancer has gotten worse. She says the doctors told her she only has about a month left of life in them. Earlier that day I was at Justin's listening to music and he played Waiting For Autumn - "Memories of You" and I really love that song. I've only heard it a couple of times before and always forget to go download it. So I have this song on repeat as I'm talking to Ashley later since I finally downloaded it. While I'm talking to her I was reading the lyrics:

  
  

  
  

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  Waiting For Autumn - Memories Of You (Yellow)

  Artists > Waiting For Autumn > Memories Of You (Yellow) Contribution by: antennas on April 16, 2004 I am awake, a lonely dreamer I think of your face 'Cause you take me with you And I drift away I can not escape You lift up My eyes to Forever I'll see you awake And I'll sing la da da dum La da da dum La dum da dum da dum 'Cause you are the fire And I am the rain Love is our way How is it now that I carry on Without your face And when you died, I sang, I cried The words to a song in place of your eyes To fare these days and dreamless nights I want you back But all these dreams are careless things I want them But always night, I close my eyes I want to run Run to you In dreams And I sing la da da dum La da da dum La dum da dum da dum We were in love, so fearless and true Love is always So I'll carry on in memory of you Until that day And when we die, we'll sing, we'll dine Tonight we'll see what all this means The time will come when I will run to you I'll run to you But all these dreams are careless things I want them But always night, I close my eyes I want to run Run to you My god had it right For you tonight And you will see And you will see us again And I will sing la da da dum La da da dum La da dum da dum

  
  

  
  

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  I didn't know the song was about someone he knew and loved dying. Seemed ironic on the day I finally download the song and find out what it is about someone dying and she tells me that. Though life makes irony more grand because when I went to visit their website www.waitingforautumn.com it is just a search page for lung cancer. How messed up is that? That was way too much irony for me. I hope the best for her so much... Life isn't fair. I told her I would give her my lungs and I'll just grow gills and live under the sea with Ariel. Anything just to make her smile, because she needs to smile now. I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like to face your mortal end at an extremely young age.

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